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  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Table of Contents

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Epigraph

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  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Copyright © 2015 by John Vaillant

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  The Library of Congress has cataloged the print edition as follows:

  Vaillant, John.

  The jaguar’s children / John Vaillant.

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  Includes bibliographical references.

  ISBN 978-0-544-31549-5 (hardback)

  1. Mexicans—Fiction. 2. Illegal aliens—Fiction. 3. Human smuggling—Fiction. 4. Border crossing—Fiction. 5. Arizona—Fiction. I. Title.

  PS3622.A3555J34 2015

  813'.6—dc23

  2014023540

  eISBN 978-0-544-29008-2

  v1.0115

  For my family

  passed and present

  Anyone attempting to classify Olmec figures will be borne imperceptibly into those of the jaguar. Gradually, human faces will acquire feline features, blending one into the other before turning, finally, into jaguars. What is important is the intimate connection between the man and the animal.

  —IGNACIO BERNAL, THE OLMEC WORLD

  1

  Thu Apr 5—08:31 [text]

  hello i am sorry to bother you but i need your assistance—i am hector—cesars friend—its an emergency now for cesar—are you in el norte? i think we are also—arizona near nogales or sonoita—since yesterday we are in this truck with no one coming—we need water and a doctor—and a torch for cutting metal

  Thu Apr 5—08:48

  please text me annimac—we need help

  Thu Apr 5—08:59

  are you there annimac? it’s hector—please text me

  Thu Apr 5—09:52

  there was a storm—1 bar only now—ARE YOU THERE???

  Thu Apr 5—10:09

  1 bar—something’s broken—maybe from the lightning—the helicopter came again but doesn’t stop—how do they not see us? nothing going now

  Thu Apr 5—10:26 [soundfile]

  Hello? I hope this works. Still one bar only but I’m recording now and when the signal comes back I will send it in a file with all the details and the information from César. He is badly hurt, AnniMac—unconscious. I looked in his contacts for someone else, but the Mexican numbers won’t work now, and you are the only one with an American code. I hope you are his friend. I know him from school, but I haven’t seen him in many years. We’ve been together only a short time now to cross the border and already he gave me so many things. I have been telling him he’s not alone, that I sent you messages and you’re coming soon, that you will save us. I don’t know if he hears, but in this darkness how will he know to live without a voice—some sign of life? So I talk to him, and to you also.

  AnniMac, if you get these messages and come to look for us what you are looking for is a water truck—an old Dina. The tank is a big one—ten thousand liters and you will know it when you see an adobe-color truck that says on the side AGUA PARA USO HUMANO—Water for Human Use. But that doesn’t mean you can drink it. This one is different because someone has painted J and R so it says now JAGUAR PARA USO HUMANO. I saw this in the garage before we loaded and I didn’t know if it was graffiti or some kind of code, the secret language of coyotes, but then I was nervous to ask and later it was too late.

  Thu Apr 5—10:34

  It works. I made a soundfile. I will send it when the bars come back, and this one also. The coyotes told us it was a good idea to fill a water truck with people. A good way to get across. No one will know we are here because there is no way into the tank besides two small pipes in the back. The door on top is too small for a person, and they put a box inside with water so if the truck is stopped and searched by la Migra it will not look suspicious. This is what the coyotes told us, like they were describing special features on a new car. It is expensive to do it they said, and this is why we must pay extra, but only un poquito. They were talking fast all the time, but not as fast as their eyes.

  Some things you want to know about coyotes—just like in the wild nature there are no fat ones and no old ones. They are young machos hoping one day to be something more—a heavy, a real chingón. But first they must do this thing—this taking across the border, and this is where they learn to be hard. Coyotes have another name also. Polleros. A pollero is a man who herds the chickens. There is no such thing really because chickens go where they want, but this is the name for these men. And we—the ones who want to cross—are the pollos. Maybe you know pollo is not a chicken running in the yard—gallina is the name for that. Pollo is chicken cooked on a plate—a dinner for coyotes. This is who is speaking to you now.

  Besides me and César in here are thirteen others—nine men and four women, all of us from the south. Two are even from Nicaragua. I don’t know how they can pay unless they are pandilleros because it is expensive to be in here. To fit us all in, a mechanic with a torch cut a hole in the belly of the tank. Then we climbed in, and with a welder he closed the hole again and painted it over. Inside is dark like you’re blind with only the cold metal to sit on and so crowded you are always touching someone. There is a smell of rust and old water and the walls are alive with something that likes to grow in the wet and dark, something that needs much less air than a man.

  I can touch the ceiling if I stand, but the tank is slippery from whatever is growing in here and I could hear people falling when they got in. Unless you are in the very back or the front, the walls are round so it is hard to sit. César and me were the last ones so we are in the back by the pipes and we have a straight wall. It is a good position and we must protect it, the same as the shoeshine man must protect his puesto on the plaza.

  The promise made to us for thirty thousand pesos each—pesitos Lupo called them, like they were only small—the promise was to cross the border quickly between Sonoita and Nogales—no more than three hours, garantizado. Then drive straight to a warehouse where a compadre will cut the hole again and let us out. We will be safe there, he said, with water and gringo clothes and time to call our contacts. In the warehouse there is some kind of secret door with a place to meet the vans so we can leave invisible. These were the promises made to us.

  All of us agreed to wait until this morning, until it got hot again, and then if the coyotes did not come back we would use the phones to call for help. No one wanted to do this. No one wants to see la Migra and be deported. We have traveled so far and paid so much. So we waited as long as we could—all day and all the night, but people are afraid now because we can die in here you know, and it is difficult to breathe.

  There are four phones I know about—mine, César’s, Naldo’s and another guy from Veracruz with no more minutes who will not speak now. Naldo is a Mixtec kid from Puebla, maybe sixteen years old. He had some minutes, but he couldn’t get a signal and then h
e used up his battery reading old text messages from his girlfriend, even though the Veracruzano told him not to. He has been crying a lot and this is bad for water conservation. Talking is not so good either, but to only wait is worse. Already it is more than thirty hours.

  Thu Apr 5—10:41

  We didn’t know what side of the border we were on so first I tried Emergencias 066. I had two bars and a tone, but it would not go so I tried your 911 and it was the same. Then I tried to call my tío in L.A. who is expecting me to come there, but it made a sound I never heard in a phone and the text would not go either. Maybe it is all the metal around us, or maybe la Migra is jamming the signal from Mexican phones. Who knows. I didn’t want to worry my mother so after this I tried to call my father’s cell, but it didn’t work. Only then I called my home in Oaxaca, and it was terrible—the call goes through—and it is my mother who answers, but for some reason she cannot hear me. It is like a dream and I am yelling but she says only “¿Bueno? ¿Bueno? ¿Quién es?”—she even guesses it is me—“¡Hectorcito!” she says—I can hear how worried she is—“¿Tito? ¿Eres tú? ¿Dónde estás?”—and I’m shouting “¡Mamá!” and the others in the truck are so quiet, listening so hard I can feel it because they think I’m connected. They think they’re saved. But it’s only me hearing her, and then she says to someone—my father, or my sister, “Nadie está allí,” and she was gone.

  Es una gran chingadera, a knife in my heart, but people were shouting at me to call again. In that moment there was so much hope. I must tell you it was hard to lose my mother like that, but not as hard as losing my minutes because when I tried again I got the message from Telcel saying my minutes were finished. I had so many but they went so fast. That’s how I knew we’d crossed the border. After this, I had despair. Maybe you saw that movie where the spaceman’s cable is cut and he floats away smaller and smaller, and there is nothing in the world he can do.

  Naldo was trying to call then also, but his phone is old and nothing was going. The Veracruzano couldn’t even get any bars. Of course I tried César’s phone. His phone is a good one—a Nokia 95, but he must be on a different network—when I called my home, the voice was so strange and far I couldn’t recognize it. I tried again to call my tío in L.A., also 066 and 911, and then I tried Sofía from my Customer Service class, and Dani, another friend from the university, but nothing would go. That’s when I looked in César’s directory. Maybe you know César has been living in D.F. for five or six years now, going to the university—to UNAM, and working there also, so he has many numbers from the Mexico City code. I looked through them all—what else is there to do? That’s when I found your American code together with an email address. The call wouldn’t go so I tried a text. There were two bars then—strong, and I said the texts are going, and people cheered. But I was afraid of losing César’s minutes too—we should wait, I told them, to see if anything comes back. That’s when we heard the thunder, beating us like a drum. And a woman near me praying, “Dios salvanos,” over and over, like those are the only words she knows. Already it was smelling very strong in the tank—sweat and fear and other bad body odors, and the heat inside was growing.

  Most of us have only a liter of water because it is such a short trip. That is all I have too, but I didn’t forget that feeling I had yesterday morning when the truck stopped and we thought we were there and César said, “Dios, espero que sí.” That little prayer, maybe it’s his premonition, I don’t know, but after it I was careful with my water. The others are saying this also—Save your water. But now it’s too late. Some people finished their water already and the food they brought is no good—Mars bars and lollipops and chicharrones con salsa—I know it by the smell. We are like children in here. Locked in a dark room.

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  Thu Apr 5—10:53

  I don’t think anyone in here speaks English besides me and César, but I can see with the phone a baby-face man sitting near us, a mestizo, who is suspicious. Him and some others, they were asking what I’m saying. They want to know if the bars came back, if I’m talking to a real person. I said to them, People send messages to God and the saints all the time and mine is not the only voice in here. Others are praying too, but not like last night when there were so many calls going out: Virgencita ayúdame . . . Jesús mío, misericordia . . . Adorada Guadalupe llena de gracia . . . Ave María, santísima . . . ¡Señor, por favor! And I knew by their words that some of them have not been to the church in a long time.

  How much can I tell you about what is happening in here? It is hard to see it, but even harder to say it. These are things no one wants to know. The son of the praying woman is moaning now and will not stop. It is not a normal moaning but the same sound every time in a rhythm. His mother is holding his head and begging him to be quiet, to rest, but he will not, or cannot. Maybe his ears don’t work anymore, or his mind. It is harder to think good thoughts in the dark.

  The only other voices now besides them and me is an older man in front who is also praying sometimes. Everyone else is only breathing, saving themselves. I don’t know if anyone is dying and I don’t want to know. I am only looking at the screen, at the battery and at your name.

  ¡Chingada madre! Still one bar only. So many messages I wrote and all of it is saved for later.

  So I tell you because this waiting is a torture.

  When the sun came up this morning, we knew it only by the sounds the tank was making as the walls got warm and then hot. It is a desert all around us, but in here the air is thick like the jungle and with the heat comes the smell of everyone, a thick blanket you can feel but cannot see. On the left side of the tank, two people down from me, is a woman from Michoacán, a baker, who left her home because of so many threats from the narcos if she doesn’t pay them every month. They killed her husband for this already and I heard her ask the praying woman, “What is better, to leave your home or stay in a place so heavy with fear and hate not even bread can rise?”

  “God knows,” said the praying woman.

  “I think He left already,” said the baker.

  She is the one who said we should make a toilet at one end of the tank, in a bag, but no one wanted to give up their place and no one wanted to be near the bag and some others could not wait so now the whole tank is a toilet. People are ashamed to talk about it so they are doing what they have to just anywhere, maybe in their water bottle, maybe in a plastic bag or their backpack, but it is bad anyway—the smell crowding around you with nowhere to go so you must breathe through your shirt, a sock, whatever you have. More than one person threw up already. With this and the heat and the thirst, people aren’t thinking right. I know this from the things they say. Some ask for empty bottles, but in return others ask for water. Some are begging even. No one wants to say what they have. In the dark, you can keep some things a secret, but not the sound or the smell.

  ¡Ay, estamos jodidos! This situation is fucked, no? When those Greeks were hiding in that horse they wanted to attack the city, and when the terrorists were hiding in those planes they wanted to attack the country, but when Mexicanos hide in a truck, what do they want to do? They want to pick the lettuce. And cut your grass.

  There are brave fighters in my country, I swear, but most of them are dead or working for the narcos.

  Thu Apr 5—11:10

  I gave César some water. He cannot take more than a little without choking so I must drip it in with the cap. Then I take a capful for myself.

  Did you ever find yourself in a situation that you cannot believe is happening—to you? That last part is important. Maybe you had dreams like this, but in the end you are permitted to wake up. I am talking about la realidad—the dream without end, a dream you would refuse to believe if only your power to refuse was so strong. Of course there are many sad situations—more and more all the time. All our newspapers have la página roja with its narco murders and terrible accidents, and I think we are like the bulls in la corrida, always distracted by the red. But since your NAFTA an
d the narcos, people have lost interest in the bulls, and why not? We are sacrificing humans now, just like in the old times. We are used to such things in the news, but it is different when it is happening to you, no? It is hard in this moment to believe I am actually awake and alive.

  It is so dark I jumped at the touch of my own hand.

  Thu Apr 5—11:22

  César’s phone gives me hope—his strong battery and his minutes. I am amazed no one stole it before he got in the truck, but he hid it very well I can tell you. On our way to meet the coyotes, the bus was stopped outside Santa Ana and the police went through everything, made us empty our pockets. Searching for drugs and weapons they said, but of course they sell them also. To migrantes, everyone always says, Don’t bring anything valuable because they will take it—if not the police, then the soldiers or some other cabrones. Maybe you must pay a mordida, maybe they look in your bag and find something they like. Whenever they want they can do this, and each time is like those screens they use to sort the rocks for cement—smaller and smaller until you have left only sand. That is about all we had when we got to the border.